My usual routine was to wake up early and get into the gym by 6.00 am. An unusual morning I found myself on the floor of the gym groaning and shivering, yet covered in sweat, as I lay there alone wondering what might be my plight. I was rushed to hospital and they began to go over every detail of my medical history as they do and then my personal history, my family history, current symptoms, well-being and state of mind. Then came the exam where they do the routine checks i.e. pulse, temperature, abdomen, heartbeat, B.P. and finally reflex response test. By this time, I was drained and crying with fear as the questions were going around in my head. Is my life over at 45? Have they found the problem? Is it cancer? How long do I have? What about my children? |
I had to close down my successful boutique after working so hard to make a name for myself amongst the who’s who. Although a single mother with 4 children, I worked hard and managed to own my own home.
I was a Mother, a friend, an aunt, a sister and self-respecting 45-year-old women. I traveled to foreign countries each year for my fashion and ran some of the best fashion shows around. I had some good relationships and some bad ones, laughed and cried, learned from my mistakes, but always got back up. I’ve never fallen into depression as many single mothers do, I’ve never had an eating disorder, I worked out everyday to stay fit and healthy, but can’t say I never took a drug in my life. I was now at my lowest and knew I had to make some big changes in my life if I wanted to see my children grow up, marry and have my grandchildren. |